I have recently had document losses because my computer quit and needed to be rebooted. Unfortunately, it seems, only what was stored in icloud was recovered, which wasn’t much. Luckily, many of my files were on the Desktop, which was recovered. It’s all a mystery to me. But here is a poem from 2017 that was surprisingly saved. Not difficult to imagine what prompted this poem. It is here, unrevised, a draft apparently. Should it be revised, the first thing to go would be the title, or at least it should read FEAR SOME. <\/p>\n
Fearsome
\n1.
\nFear of not knowing is a chilling
\nfear, a cold war fear, green walls,
\nbowed heads, the fear
\nbaby boomers might have experienced;<\/p>\n
I wanted suicide pills in my pocket, just in case
\nI didn\u2019t want survival. Fear of what:
\na nuclear weapon, a bomb? No bomb
\nshelter. I was clueless. I wasn\u2019t fit
\nto be a living martyr.<\/p>\n
But, that was then, pre-Kennedy. I was
\neleven or twelve, without words. Intellect
\nwas government food on the table, cradled
\nby child support and a fearless, single
\nmother.<\/p>\n
2.
\n2017, fear is hot, fear an inferno.
\nFear deeper than a sixth grade girl,
\ngreen walls, a cold war. <\/p>\n
THIS fear is smart fear. Aware.
\nListens. Questions. What is
\nAn Executive Order? Grand
\nStanding, a stance set in brick
\nwalls? Walls do eventually
\ncrumble or get knocked down.
\nI like my walls to be fences,
\nfences to be metaphor, satire,
\nand cost nothing\u2014but wisdom.
\nFree words rumbling
\nand tumbling wild.<\/p>\n
This fear knows too much. It weighs
\nheavy with take aways and prophet
\ndemands.<\/p>\n
3.
\nI have known prophets. Who hasn\u2019t believed
\nthey were Jesus? I was a flower child, more
\nchild than prophet, more disciple than deity.
\nSome of us deserve empathy. Call it
\nmaturation.<\/p>\n
Some say mentally unstable,
\nderanged. Don\u2019t be fooled.
\nOne has to be worthy
\nof psychiatric labeling as excuse or definition.
\nEvil. Out of control narcissist. Evil.
\nI\u2019ve seen it before, but never this pronounced.<\/p>\n
4.
\nGreed is unbelievable and unbecoming. Greed will be
\nUndone. I call for a bell bottom revival, tie
\ndye shirts, and love-ins. \u201cThe Mystical Magical Tour\u201d
\nand the \u201cWhite Rabbit.\u201d<\/p>\n
Reefer is everywhere, we\u2019ve got the weed. At least,
\nuntil another Executive Order.<\/p>\n
\u201cMystical Magical Tour,\u201d Lennon\u2013McCartney, 1967, 8 December 1967
\n\u201cWhite Rabbit,\u201d Grace Wing Slick (Jefferson Airplane)<\/p>\n
\u00a9Sherry Quan Lee
\nJanuary 26, 2017<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I have recently had document losses because my computer quit and needed to be rebooted. Unfortunately, it seems, only what was stored in icloud was recovered, which wasn’t much. Luckily, many of my files were on the Desktop, which was recovered. It’s all a mystery to me. But here is …<\/p>\n